September has always felt like a new beginning to me – the changing of the leaves, turning over my garden, putting the air conditioner away. Even when I was no longer in school myself, and didn’t have a child, this time of year signaled what the New Year often signals for others.
After pregnancy losses, this time of year also reminded me of everything I didn’t have. I can tell you every grade my hopeful child would be entering. I couldn’t fill up pencil boxes, or complete a summer reading list. I couldn’t lay out clothes for the first day of school. Or experience the excitement of meeting a new teacher and classmates.
Initially, I was surprised by the emotions I experienced. I didn’t feel prepared; and yet, this time of year can be a challenging time of year after a pregnancy loss.
With this in mind, take some space today, or this week, to check-in with how you are feeling and what you need.
·     What does September mean to me?
·     How distressed am I feeling today (on a scale of 1-10)?
·     What do I need to support myself today? (Examples: stay off social media for a few days as people share back to school photos; take a walk outside; take a day off work if I can; join a support group; speak to a therapist; read a book.)
Your feelings are valid right now. Give yourself permission to do what you need to do.
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